senyum...

hendak ku pastikan semuanya indah utk dirinya...
mahuku binakan semua yg sempurna baginya...
tp aku terlalu mencuba... aku terlalu memaksa akhirnya...
hati ini kadang2 inginkan semuanya...
hati ini selalu hanya tahu berkeras meninggi ego...
otak pula sentiasa mahu negatif...
otak juga menjadi celaru tanpa arah...
puas sudah aku terluka... dgn nya aku tak mahu menjadi serupa
kerna itu ku cuba menjaga...
tp dlm tak sedar rupanya hanya memaksa...
cukuplah hati... sudahlah otak...
jd la bibir yg sentiasa mengukir senyum...
walau hati egokan diri, walau otak memberontak

Live with it, Deal with it...

there have been so many times you get upset, angry and all disappointed by things that shouldn't be an issue to brag about... i am one of you! bloody hate it at times... that many times too that i made others upset of my act and decisions. so many times that i remind myself of not to be so uptight... but to no avail, the -ve always takes control of all that can be +ve.

why not b +ve of whatever that happens... i've always get upset about things like no reply from a message, waiting for too long, and all small things that could become a virus... sigh! who ever thinks i am happy to live with it? i want to change things that is happening in my life... but i have to sort my mind out...

first it have to be the mind set... patience, patience, patience... don't ever do somethg witout it... from there you'll be able to control your mind and look at things on a positive side. whatever that happens, pasue and have a breather... think of what could it be, what should b done but stop taking -ve thoughts into it...

well, let try this and see how things goes. some people say i do think too much... and now, i dont want to think of anythg... just live with it, deal with it...

new year...

just got back from jakarta... was there for the last weekend. unfortunately I dont enjoy jakarta much... semak dan serabut. golf was good... enjoyed the course and the company but outside of golf... hmmm, nothing much to talk abt actually. my trip was a bit dull I should say.

earlier this month I was in Singapore... celebrating new year with my family... had some round of golf too... great time with my father's friends. manage to win few hundred ringgits... heheheh! semua tak puas hati nk repeat. nad yes... we had a repeat game and guess what, dendam tak terbalas. heheheh! sorry uncles...

guess my golf has improve for quite a bit. love it to pieces and trying to get more freinds to join the crazy game. it is crazy... I've been going crazy about the new craze of LOUDMOUTH GOLF... great variety of design for golfing attire. trust me... those designs are very loud. heheheh!

btw, congrats to my mate, Hadry on his wedding... tiba2 je kahwin. well, dh smpi jodoh kan... saw the video of how they met, how they went thru the relationship... good for them that it lasted for so long. na dso happy for them. harap2 kekal hingga ke anak cucu... hingga ke syurga.

Ku ada kamu

the most uplifting song for the year 2011... well at least for me.

i dont know... i guess this song hv a strong character to bring me back to life whenever i'm down. well, last year... i don't know. i think my life was never as complicated... ada je benda yg tak kena dgn aku. skang, aku hadap sendiri hidup ni... yg selalu tak menentu. people say i should relax a little more... leave all the -ve thoughts behind... i wasnt like this... where is my +ve attitude that i hv possesed? lately i'm being so uptight... ntah la... i dont like to share. maybe thats is why... ntah la... only God knows how i feel... i dont even understand myself.